Do you ever wonder why things happen the way they do? Since this life is ordained by God, what was His purpose for this particular thing happening to you? Do you ponder if there is a lesson to be learned; or do you deal with each circumstance without too much concern (regarding the bigger picture) within the story of your life? Does your heart and mind struggle in a twisted writhe?

I tend to be curious as to the “why” things turn out like they do; pondering what The Lord was teaching, as I was walking through the experience, the circumstance, the specific situation. In angst, dismay and nervousness with forbidding trepidation.

I ponder and wonder and contemplate the “ifs” the “whys”  “for whats”. Mulling it over and again in my mind, until it almost drives me nuts! Because if our fight is not against flesh and blood but against the darkness of Satan’s spiritual regime; it stands to reason Satan’s minions tripped me up and I just didn’t see ’em!


Perhaps it is a test from The Living God, to see how I will react? Will I call on His name in my hour of need… or curse Him…which holds an eternal impact!

I recently found myself in a bit of a situation, which resulted in me being flat on my back. I cried out to The Lord, “O God, O God” with praise and prayers I would NOT have to retract! And yes He heard my cries and answered my prayer, as I laid there in the mud and the rain; sending “Angels” to attend to my need… three I knew, one I didn’t catch her name.

But she took my hand and prayed over me. She could tell I was in great pain. Asking for healing, she lifted me up…praying for me in Jesus’ name. It was at that moment when she finished her prayer, the nurse called my name and her touch was withdrawn. I turned back around to thank her, but in that instant…she was gone!

In past times my thoughts have turned Heavenward, pondering, what The Savior might be trying to teach but it wasn’t until I was flat on my back did I allow His voice to reach…

My unwillingness to listen, my disobedience to His Word, because my half-hearted seeking had left my vision blurred…to living a life only for God! And since Christ suffered in His body we arm ourselves with the same attitude. Because he who has suffered in his body is finished with sin. He is through! So we must NOT be surprised at the painful trials we suffer, as something strange were happening to us. But know that we take part in the sufferings of Christ, so that we may be overjoyed and rejoice.  (1 Peter 4:1-11 (NIV))

The Bible says, if you suffer because of the name of Christ you are blessed. For the spirit of glory and of God on you, rests. If you suffer ii should not be as a murderer or thief. If you suffer as a Christian do not be ashamed, no longer weep. But praise God that you bear the name of Christ, resting assuredly your name is found in The Lamb’s Book of Life. Yes, those who suffer according to God’s will should…commit themselves to their spiritual creator and continue to do good.

Author: Marie Fitts

Wife, Mom, Daughter, Sister, Aunt, Friend, Writer, Dog Lover, Grated in and Grateful, Child of the Most High God!

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